Category: tactics

WHY DRAKE SEEMS SO SAD: SYRUP, PLEASURE AND HAPPINESS

drake smoking in front of planes, looking sad


 Marvin’s Room (Shlohmo’s thru tha floor remix) – Drake by shlohmoA question I hear frequently asked about Toronto based Hiphop/RnB rapper/singer/child actor Drake in the press is why his new music is so depressing sounding and what does he have to be unhappy about? He’s young, rich and famous! He’s got a seemingly endless supply of adoring fans, pretty women, drugs, alcohol, money and a venue for his artistic expression to talk about his feelings. Hot97 is his psychotherapy couch.

When he sings:
‘Cups of the XO
Bitches in my old phone
I should call one and go home
I’ve been in this club too long
The woman that I would try
Is happy with a good guy

But I’ve been drinking so much
That I’ma call her anyway and say
“F-ck that nigga that you love so bad
I know you still think about the times we had”
I say “f-ck that nigga that you think you found
And since you picked up I know he’s not around”

(Are you drunk right now?)

I’m just sayin’, you could do better
Tell me have you heard that lately?
I’m just sayin’ you could do better
And I’ll start hatin’, only if you make me’

Drake strikes me as being honest here. Even though he has all of the above material and ego-enhancing things that many of us want, he is still not happy.  When artists are honest and speak about what’s really happening with them instead of repeating tropes that seem like the ‘industry standard’ (I’m balling! I’m awesome! I’m getting money!) it adds a richness of meaning, the texture of personal reality.  The current vogue for sipping XO (aka sizzurp, purple drank, or cough syrup made with promethazine and codeine) popularized by many rap/rnb artists including recently Drake and The Weeknd seems to support this pretty well. Codeine is an opiate, the same active ingredient found in heroin. It’s a central nervous system depressant that makes you sleepy and dulls pain when used when you’re sick. If consumed when you’re healthy it pushes pleasure buttons in your brain and feels great.   Taking codeine also kills you.  If you slow your central nervous system down enough you’ll just stop breathing. RIP DJ Screw and Pimp C. My question is: how much must you be suffering to make this glamourous lifestyle choice? Scientific research has pointed to links between the way we experience physical and psychic pain, like the pain of depression, including the fact that depression sufferers seem to have more acute physical pain.  As far as I can tell people who are happy and fulfilled don’t need to constantly take large amounts of central nervous system depressants like codeine and alcohol.

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Comfort Is The Enemy


Image and quote from akhilak.com (and actually it’s a pretty good post about a similar subject, conquering fear)
“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear. ~ Nelson Mandela”

The title of this post is more of a challenge for myself since I feel I’ve been slipping in this department.  In the years when I moved to Europe, became active in the Grime scene and was solely dependent on performance income I think I lived this a lot more. I remember being constantly stressed, at some points severely so, but also excited and exhilarated. Somehow I was constantly taking action which brought me closer to the things I wanted and my goals. I remember realizing during that time that this stressed, excited feeling was the feeling of being outside my comfort zone. Think about it: if you’re outside of your comfort zone you’re doing something challenging, something where you’re risking failure. You’re stretching yourself and growing as a person. When you’re in your comfort zone things feel familiar, easy, you feel confident and sure of yourself. Comfortable. These seem like good feelings right? Except what’s happening to you is you’re stagnating. You’re sitting still. You’re like the kid who will never take the training wheels off the bike. It’s fun riding a bike with training wheels, you won’t fall and hurt yourself and it’s not frightening because you’re confident you can do it. But the feeling that you get when you pull them off, wipe out a few times but THEN get it and take off, is incredible. It feels like flying.

I feel in my life lately I’ve been regressing, embracing things I know I can do and failing to challenge myself. I’ve got lots of excuses for that but fundamentally I know what I’m guilty of. My new challenge to myself is to try harder, demand more of myself and take some risks. Just typing that makes me feel anxious, which is how I can tell that I’m aiming in the right direction.

Do The Work

I just finished reading something I want to share with you guys.  Its a short booklet by Stephen Pressfield called Do The Work.  It shares a lot of the concerns and themes that I’ve kicked around on this blog and it really struck a chord with me.
It’s a book of advice and admonitions for anyone who is embarked on a creative endeavor.  This is a broad category including making an album, writing a novel, starting a business or creating anything that’s somewhat involved.  What all these things have in common is that they are difficult and along the way will lead you into conflict with the villain of Pressfield’s book: Resistance.  Resistance is the voice in your head that questions your every move, tells you you’re not good enough, or not as good as so and so, that everyone is going to laugh at you and why don’t you just sleep for four more hours? Or go out for a drink? Or watch some tv?  Basically it tries everything in the book to get you to do anything besides what you should be doing: doing the work.  Pressfield touches on many topics including fear of failure, fear of success, strategies for breaking through the end of a difficult project and fear again and then more fear  It’s written in a punchy, combative style which makes it fun and funny and definitely helped me to think about a few things which I feel have been holding me back.
After reading it I realized that one of the things I’ve struggled with is a fear of swinging for the fences, going big, aiming for the stars.  He calls it ‘playing small ball’  Whether it’s a fear of failure or success or just a desire to stay in my comfort zone I don’t know but I felt challenged to figure it out.  I had a conversation with my friend Rico recently where he was talking about finishing an album he was working on with his partner Sarah White.  He told me “I finished! And in the end it was all mental!” My reply to him: “it’s all all mental.”
What challenges do you face from resistance?  Have you read “Do The Work”?  What did you think?

20 Minutes of Creative Process

My friend Corey Maass aka Secret Agent Gel of the Noteworking meetup (formerly known as Netmix) just posted these 2 videos of my talk there last Tuesday.  I had fun giving the talk, kind of swerved around my subject a little bit and made a few weird analogies, but HEY it\’s all part of talking live without a script.  For those who\’ve read this blog you\’ll recognize a lot of the ideas but now you get to hear me say them instead of reading them.  I talked a bit about creative process in general, some of it directly related to music production and some stuff related to being an artist more generally.  Check them out and let me know what you think!

Part 1:

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Part 2:

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And also Ricardo Moncada of Halcyon gave a cool talk about web technology and social media for creative businesses, check it out over at the Noteworking site.

Fuck Approval: Artistic Freedom and Getting #Based

Lil B is the Andy Warhol of rap.

Creative freedom is regarded as something that all creators want and see as valuable. The question is freedom from what? Generally the forces that seek to control and limit our creativity are thought to be external. But what about ourselves? What role do we play in creating or accepting boxes, limitations, norms, rules, guidelines which fence in our creativity? I recently listened to an episode of the Accidental Creative podcast in which he talked about the concept of separating our personal feelings of self-worth from the way people react to our creations. The major theme of that lesson was that you are not your work and therefore shouldn’t behave that way emotionally. For me personally this was a powerful idea.

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So much of my feeling of self-worth is tied up in the things that I create. These could be pieces of music, ideas, companies, or groups of people. If I feel that I played a significant role in creating something then a great deal of my self-worth is tied up in the success of or the perception of that thing. As much as I try not to feel this way, if someone gives a negative review to a piece of my music for example, I feel personally attacked and it can have a real effect on my mood for the rest of the day or longer. This is not good both for the fact that you are exposing yourself to negative emotions from external forces that you can’t control but perhaps more importantly because the fear of being judged becomes internalized and you begin to set up internal boundaries for yourself. You try to begin to seek out ideas which are safer and more likely to earn more praise and less criticism. When we find ourselves backed into this corner, it’s a major loss for our potential as an artist. I feel that one of the strongest creative actions we can take is to dive fearlessly off a cliff into new territory without trying to fit into a box or seek an existing audience’s approval.

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Someone who I have a tremendous amount of respect for in this regard is Lil B the Berkley based rapper who’s also a member of The Pack. To the un-initiated one might listen to a song like ‘Look Like Jesus’ and hear Lil B rapping that ‘Hoes suck my dick because I dress like Jesus Christ’ and dismiss him as just another rapper. What makes him interesting is his willingness to go to ludicrous extremes, turn the hyper-masculine braggadocio of hip-hop on it’s head by rapping about how he ‘looks like a princess’ and he’s a ‘pretty bitch’ and fearlessly saying absolutely anything that pops into his stream of consciousness. Those who follow rap know that as in any art-form rappers are constantly dancing along a line of accepted rapper behavior and making short forays into as yet un-touched subject matter, attitudes and visual and musical styles. The history of stylistic change in hip-hop is incremental with few artists making bold leaps into new territory. What I see in Lil B is an artist relentlessly transgressing boundaries and pushing his art and persona as absolutely far as he can go.

With songs like “I’m God” and “I’m a Faggot” he seems to be constantly searching for ways to provoke his audience which is completely de-sensitized by tales of violence, sex, crime and drug-use in rap. What I respect about this is that here we have an artist in a genre of people proclaiming how fearless they are while relentlessly conforming. Lil B seems to truly not give a shit what people think. Not only does he not give a shit but he’s actually turned it into an ideology which he’s given the name “Based”. You’ll see the term pop up in the titles of his freestyles, on his twitter (which is terrific if you don’t mind your timeline being totally bombarded) and in his frequent name for himself “The Based God”.

In an interview with Complex magazine he explains:

Complex: What’s your definition of “based,” because you say that with everything. What does that mean? Lil B: Based means being yourself. Not being scared of what people think about you. Not being afraid to do what you wanna do. Being positive. When I was younger, based was a negative term that meant like dopehead, or basehead. People used to make fun of me. They was like, “You’re based.” They’d use it as a negative. And what I did was turn that negative into a positive. I started embracing it like, “Yeah, I’m based.” I made it mine. I embedded it in my head. Based is positive.

Complex: It’s also like a stream-of-consciousness thing when you’re rapping, right? Lil B: Exactly. In Based Freestyles, we don’t think. You just let your unconscious mind speak. You let the truth speak. I’m not pre-thinking what I’m gonna speak. I’m going to speak from what my mind says, and that’s the truth. That’s the truth right there. For those of us who are not Lil B what do we take from all this? For me it’s the power of fearlessness and a concerted pushing of artistic and personal borders. It’s an opportunity to look inward and try to identify where you’re limiting yourself with fears or desire for approval and kick that over. How do you see this working for you? How do you feel you’ve been limiting yourself?

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When Pirates Attack: The Entertainment Industry vs. The Internet

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Just read an interesting thread about how a group of anonymous pro-piracy activists have gotten fed up with the RIAA, MPAA and other anti-piracy organizations launching denial of service attacks on sites like The Pirate Bay. Apparently a company called Aiplex was hired by the MPAA to launch a denial of service attack against The Pirate Bay. A denial of service attack is when one hammers a service with automated requests in order to crash or disrupt their operations. It’s as if someone set up a computer to call your phone a million times so that you couldn’t make or receive calls. In this case these were distributed denial of service attacks meaning they involved many voluntary users running a program call LOIC to participate in the attacks. Sort of like a flash mob for cyber aggression.

This is interesting in and of itself since it’s one of the first times I’ve heard of denial of service attacks being used as a form of protest. What’s also interesting about this to me is the rhetoric you read around it about ‘corrupt labels and studios’ and attacking Sony and Warner brothers. As if the participants see themselves as some kind of revolutionary movement rather than a bunch of people who just want to consume other peoples creative work without paying for it. What’s interesting is not that people want to steal stuff, I get that, but the interesting part is that they feel so self-righteous about it. As if it’s a moral imperative.

Here’s a quote from a comment thread discussion at TorrentFreak.com

“It is still aiming at the decoys or mirror images of the real targets. The real targets are the media companies like Disney, Sony and so on.

However if for whatever reason someone wants to stay with secondary targets then lawfirms are extremely vulnarable. Especially for IP lawyers taking out their E-mail system for a few weeks will damage their business (Not to mention to explain potential new clients why they are attacked by random people).”

As someone who understands the piratical impulse but is also on the other side of the line as an independent label owner I would love to hear from this community and hear what their advice is for someone like me. I am not a corrupt label owner but I am hurt by piracy as is the whole independent business. Sales are way down across the board and still falling. It means that for me and my friends running a label we really can’t afford to put ANY money into a release. Even recouping very affordable mastering costs is a risk. Not to mention huge costs like paying for PR to promote a record.

So my question is: if the pirate community is going to start to act like a movement what is your suggestion for small outfits like mine to be able to release the music or films you enjoy consuming for free? I’m not being sarcastic. The thing that I find weird about this is a lot of the rhetoric that suggests that people are seeing piracy as a movement or even an ideology. Clearly there are some very bright and technically savvy people in this community. How do you think content producers should be made able to be paid for our work if you won’t buy it? Technical, social or political solutions are welcome.

Funny Cats

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Check out a little viral video I just made for the song Funny Cats off my album Flowers. It’s got a bunch of LOLcats images and funny cat videos from YouTube cut to my song.

There were two inspirations for this video. 1) I actually like these stupid cat videos on the internet and feel like the effervescent silliness of them fits the song well 2) they get 40 Million hits on YouTube. So the idea here is to see if combining my song with this kind of viral content can make it get more hits and more importantly reach people who aren’t blog-reading, social-networking music nerds but instead regular people who watch funny cat videos on YouTube. I’ll let you know how it works.

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Creativity: How To Turn Lack Of Time & Resources Into An Asset

Banksy Smiley Face Grim Reaper

“creativity was the ability to bring to life an image or idea regardless of resources”

- Chief Boima, Interviewed by Eddie Stats

Eddie Stats has a great interview with Dutty Artz familia Chief Boima and Vamanos from Ghetto Bassquake over at his blog Ghetto Palms for the Fader (linked below). In it came the above quote which Boima mentions in the context of film theory.

I love this idea and it brings me back to a concept that I try to bash my friends and students over the head with all the time.

Creativity is what happens IN SPITE of things like equipment, time and resources. A lot of people I know cling to the idea that as soon as they get this next plug-in, keyboard, piece of software, money, time or whatever it is that they don’t currently have that they’ll be able to accomplish their creative goals.

I am sorry to report that this is absolutely not the case.

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Dropbox is Cool

\"\"Dropbox is cool.  I just started using it and I like it.  It\’s way cooler than a lot of the dumb file hosting services out there as a way to send links to people and it has the added bonus of allowing you to synch up multiple computers, including your phone.  I\’ve been getting promos from other labels and artists via it and the experience is very pleasant and easy.

You make an account, download their software and create a folder, which appears on your computer and looks like a regular folder.  You add stuff to it, and then if you synch up that to other computers you can access the files as if they\’re on the same computer or a local network.  You get 2GB of storage to start for free and can go up to 8GB if you refer your friends, best of all it\’s FREE.  Here\’s a link to sign up, get a free account and give me some extra gigabytes.

Haters: Learn To Love Them

Haters. Got some? Good! To paraphrase the great and funny Katt Williams: If you don’t have haters, you’re doing it wrong. Having haters means that people are noticing you, engaging with your work and having an emotional response. If that response is to get on the internet and call you a racist or a no-talent, well… First let’s look at some tactics for just processing all that acid that someone just spat at you. Timothy Ferriss, author of The Four Hour Work Week which I reviewed below, wrote a great post about this on his blog. In that, there’s a video, check it out:

He talks about Seneca, bad reviews and crazy people leaving you voice mail. He’s clearly very happy with himself and that can grate a little, HOWEVER, he’s dropping MAD SCIENCE. Absorb it.

The next is an interesting post I found at AudibleHype.com. This one is quite relevant to us as musicians who are on the internet a lot. In the post he interviews many underground hip-hop musicians and talks to them about their approach in dealing with criticism and negative feedback. This is especially interesting because if you know the internet hip-hop scene it is an INCREDIBLY toxic, testosterone soaked, hater packed environment. I personally would rather hang out in that water filled trash compactor room from Star Wars. For whatever reason some of the braggadocio that is in the genes of hip-hop has mutated into an incredibly ugly set of behaviors on the internet that you can see on YouTube comments, various forums, basically any web 2.0 space dealing with hip-hop. This may also be that your average hip-hop listener and internet user is young, male and filled with vague feelings that they are being ‘slept-on’.

He starts with some nice and simple bullet points:

1. This is a business, not a talent show. That’s real simple but 90% of rappers will still complain about their skills getting slept on. There are seven billion human beings on this planet and every single one of us is going to die. Getting over yourself is the best business investment you can make…and it’s not easy.

2. Life is not fair because there are no rules. The main test of character you face in life is what you decide to do after you finally realize that. Is that an opportunity or a tragedy? Your call. Nobody is there to referee the game. You will have triumphs, you will have setbacks, but the game itself is never over.

3. If you really thought you were the shit, you wouldn’t need to prove it. Arrogance is actually not confidence, it’s insecurity.

Check out his article here: Love Thy Hater: How to Learn and Profit from “Bad” Feedback.j