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Comfort Is The Enemy


Image and quote from akhilak.com (and actually it’s a pretty good post about a similar subject, conquering fear)
“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear. ~ Nelson Mandela”

The title of this post is more of a challenge for myself since I feel I’ve been slipping in this department.  In the years when I moved to Europe, became active in the Grime scene and was solely dependent on performance income I think I lived this a lot more. I remember being constantly stressed, at some points severely so, but also excited and exhilarated. Somehow I was constantly taking action which brought me closer to the things I wanted and my goals. I remember realizing during that time that this stressed, excited feeling was the feeling of being outside my comfort zone. Think about it: if you’re outside of your comfort zone you’re doing something challenging, something where you’re risking failure. You’re stretching yourself and growing as a person. When you’re in your comfort zone things feel familiar, easy, you feel confident and sure of yourself. Comfortable. These seem like good feelings right? Except what’s happening to you is you’re stagnating. You’re sitting still. You’re like the kid who will never take the training wheels off the bike. It’s fun riding a bike with training wheels, you won’t fall and hurt yourself and it’s not frightening because you’re confident you can do it. But the feeling that you get when you pull them off, wipe out a few times but THEN get it and take off, is incredible. It feels like flying.

I feel in my life lately I’ve been regressing, embracing things I know I can do and failing to challenge myself. I’ve got lots of excuses for that but fundamentally I know what I’m guilty of. My new challenge to myself is to try harder, demand more of myself and take some risks. Just typing that makes me feel anxious, which is how I can tell that I’m aiming in the right direction.

Fuck Approval: Artistic Freedom and Getting #Based

Lil B is the Andy Warhol of rap.

Creative freedom is regarded as something that all creators want and see as valuable. The question is freedom from what? Generally the forces that seek to control and limit our creativity are thought to be external. But what about ourselves? What role do we play in creating or accepting boxes, limitations, norms, rules, guidelines which fence in our creativity? I recently listened to an episode of the Accidental Creative podcast in which he talked about the concept of separating our personal feelings of self-worth from the way people react to our creations. The major theme of that lesson was that you are not your work and therefore shouldn’t behave that way emotionally. For me personally this was a powerful idea.

Lil B – I’m God YouTube Preview Image

So much of my feeling of self-worth is tied up in the things that I create. These could be pieces of music, ideas, companies, or groups of people. If I feel that I played a significant role in creating something then a great deal of my self-worth is tied up in the success of or the perception of that thing. As much as I try not to feel this way, if someone gives a negative review to a piece of my music for example, I feel personally attacked and it can have a real effect on my mood for the rest of the day or longer. This is not good both for the fact that you are exposing yourself to negative emotions from external forces that you can’t control but perhaps more importantly because the fear of being judged becomes internalized and you begin to set up internal boundaries for yourself. You try to begin to seek out ideas which are safer and more likely to earn more praise and less criticism. When we find ourselves backed into this corner, it’s a major loss for our potential as an artist. I feel that one of the strongest creative actions we can take is to dive fearlessly off a cliff into new territory without trying to fit into a box or seek an existing audience’s approval.

Lil B – Look Like Jesus YouTube Preview Image

Someone who I have a tremendous amount of respect for in this regard is Lil B the Berkley based rapper who’s also a member of The Pack. To the un-initiated one might listen to a song like ‘Look Like Jesus’ and hear Lil B rapping that ‘Hoes suck my dick because I dress like Jesus Christ’ and dismiss him as just another rapper. What makes him interesting is his willingness to go to ludicrous extremes, turn the hyper-masculine braggadocio of hip-hop on it’s head by rapping about how he ‘looks like a princess’ and he’s a ‘pretty bitch’ and fearlessly saying absolutely anything that pops into his stream of consciousness. Those who follow rap know that as in any art-form rappers are constantly dancing along a line of accepted rapper behavior and making short forays into as yet un-touched subject matter, attitudes and visual and musical styles. The history of stylistic change in hip-hop is incremental with few artists making bold leaps into new territory. What I see in Lil B is an artist relentlessly transgressing boundaries and pushing his art and persona as absolutely far as he can go.

With songs like “I’m God” and “I’m a Faggot” he seems to be constantly searching for ways to provoke his audience which is completely de-sensitized by tales of violence, sex, crime and drug-use in rap. What I respect about this is that here we have an artist in a genre of people proclaiming how fearless they are while relentlessly conforming. Lil B seems to truly not give a shit what people think. Not only does he not give a shit but he’s actually turned it into an ideology which he’s given the name “Based”. You’ll see the term pop up in the titles of his freestyles, on his twitter (which is terrific if you don’t mind your timeline being totally bombarded) and in his frequent name for himself “The Based God”.

In an interview with Complex magazine he explains:

Complex: What’s your definition of “based,” because you say that with everything. What does that mean? Lil B: Based means being yourself. Not being scared of what people think about you. Not being afraid to do what you wanna do. Being positive. When I was younger, based was a negative term that meant like dopehead, or basehead. People used to make fun of me. They was like, “You’re based.” They’d use it as a negative. And what I did was turn that negative into a positive. I started embracing it like, “Yeah, I’m based.” I made it mine. I embedded it in my head. Based is positive.

Complex: It’s also like a stream-of-consciousness thing when you’re rapping, right? Lil B: Exactly. In Based Freestyles, we don’t think. You just let your unconscious mind speak. You let the truth speak. I’m not pre-thinking what I’m gonna speak. I’m going to speak from what my mind says, and that’s the truth. That’s the truth right there. For those of us who are not Lil B what do we take from all this? For me it’s the power of fearlessness and a concerted pushing of artistic and personal borders. It’s an opportunity to look inward and try to identify where you’re limiting yourself with fears or desire for approval and kick that over. How do you see this working for you? How do you feel you’ve been limiting yourself?

Lil B – Freedom YouTube Preview Image

Facebook Censorship: Who owns your online presence?

Facebook censorship errorAs artists nowadays many of us spend a lot of time updating social sites, building our followerships and driving traffic to them. A few events recently have given me reason to think twice about this practice. The first was when Masalacism, friends of Dutty Artz, had their free blog shut down by Google. The second was this recent article by online marketer Glen Gabe whose stuff I like. In short he was trying to talk about a similar event on Facebook where a guy’s page with 47k fans was shut down due to a trademark dispute. Gabe was trying to post a link to a story talking about it on a blog to Facebook and Facebook blocked him from doing so saying there was a technical error (see image above). Welcome to the world of social media censorship.

One of the main reasons this is possible is that in fact, as much work as we invest in promoting our profiles and their sites at the end of the day legally we don’t own them. They do. And if they decide they don’t like how you’re using their site, they can zap you. The defense against this is not avoiding these sites but instead creating your own piece of space on the web that you actually own. In my case, you’re looking at it. I use my social sites, mainly Facebook and Twitter to drive traffic back here and if I lose both those profiles this is still a place for people to come find me that I actually own.

I setup this site for about $6.00 US a month in hosting costs and am enjoying running it. Its running the free blog hosting software WordPress which I like because it’s designed to be easy to update often. If you’re interested in doing the same I wrote a how-to post here that has step by step instructions.

Has anything like this happened to you? Have you had a profile deleted? What was your response?

Creativity: How To Turn Lack Of Time & Resources Into An Asset

Banksy Smiley Face Grim Reaper

“creativity was the ability to bring to life an image or idea regardless of resources”

- Chief Boima, Interviewed by Eddie Stats

Eddie Stats has a great interview with Dutty Artz familia Chief Boima and Vamanos from Ghetto Bassquake over at his blog Ghetto Palms for the Fader (linked below). In it came the above quote which Boima mentions in the context of film theory.

I love this idea and it brings me back to a concept that I try to bash my friends and students over the head with all the time.

Creativity is what happens IN SPITE of things like equipment, time and resources. A lot of people I know cling to the idea that as soon as they get this next plug-in, keyboard, piece of software, money, time or whatever it is that they don’t currently have that they’ll be able to accomplish their creative goals.

I am sorry to report that this is absolutely not the case.

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Haters: Learn To Love Them

Haters. Got some? Good! To paraphrase the great and funny Katt Williams: If you don’t have haters, you’re doing it wrong. Having haters means that people are noticing you, engaging with your work and having an emotional response. If that response is to get on the internet and call you a racist or a no-talent, well… First let’s look at some tactics for just processing all that acid that someone just spat at you. Timothy Ferriss, author of The Four Hour Work Week which I reviewed below, wrote a great post about this on his blog. In that, there’s a video, check it out:

He talks about Seneca, bad reviews and crazy people leaving you voice mail. He’s clearly very happy with himself and that can grate a little, HOWEVER, he’s dropping MAD SCIENCE. Absorb it.

The next is an interesting post I found at AudibleHype.com. This one is quite relevant to us as musicians who are on the internet a lot. In the post he interviews many underground hip-hop musicians and talks to them about their approach in dealing with criticism and negative feedback. This is especially interesting because if you know the internet hip-hop scene it is an INCREDIBLY toxic, testosterone soaked, hater packed environment. I personally would rather hang out in that water filled trash compactor room from Star Wars. For whatever reason some of the braggadocio that is in the genes of hip-hop has mutated into an incredibly ugly set of behaviors on the internet that you can see on YouTube comments, various forums, basically any web 2.0 space dealing with hip-hop. This may also be that your average hip-hop listener and internet user is young, male and filled with vague feelings that they are being ‘slept-on’.

He starts with some nice and simple bullet points:

1. This is a business, not a talent show. That’s real simple but 90% of rappers will still complain about their skills getting slept on. There are seven billion human beings on this planet and every single one of us is going to die. Getting over yourself is the best business investment you can make…and it’s not easy.

2. Life is not fair because there are no rules. The main test of character you face in life is what you decide to do after you finally realize that. Is that an opportunity or a tragedy? Your call. Nobody is there to referee the game. You will have triumphs, you will have setbacks, but the game itself is never over.

3. If you really thought you were the shit, you wouldn’t need to prove it. Arrogance is actually not confidence, it’s insecurity.

Check out his article here: Love Thy Hater: How to Learn and Profit from “Bad” Feedback.j

How To Make Money In The Post Recording-Business Environment

Record executive stereotype.

Redmonk, a person I’ve been acquainted with through the music scene for a while made a comment on my post ‘I’m Doing It For The Scene Maaaan’ which was relevant to the thesis he’s working on. He posted a few thoughts and links in the comments to that post and rather than type out my reaction as a super long comment that people might not see I decided to do a post about it.

Generally the thoughts are all circling around how artists will make money after the business of selling recorded music, what I call the recording business, finally dies. I use the term recording business rather than music business because there are plenty of businesses about or around music which are making lots of money including gear manufacturers, educational institutions, makers of music listening devices etc. The biggest casualties I see in all this are the labels and at some level the artists. Redmonk is italicized below, my thoughts are interspersed.

Hey Matt, you might have seen this:

http://labs.timesonline.co.uk/blog/2009/11/12/do-music-artists-do-better-in-a-world-with-illegal-file-sharing/

Predicts that artists will supposedly soon be making more from gigs than selling physical copies of their music.

There are more and more theorists (including Gerd Loenhard – http://www.mediafuturist.com/) essentially arguing that we should be heard first, build an audience and then once the trust is there, they’ll pay to see our gigs, buy our merch etc. So give the music away for free (cos if people want to, they’ll get it for free somehow) and make money through other streams.

Firstly I don’t think giving all your music away for free is a valid model for first time artists. It creates the perception that that music has no value and makes it look like un-filtered amateur spew (which it often is) and makes people not think of it as professional. People still place great respect in the idea of ‘getting signed’ or ‘having a record deal’ even if it is just to some bedroom label putting out 12″s or digital singles. There is still an important role for the record label to play as a creative force, and it’s important to know that MOST labels are run by enthusiasts who are contributing to the dialogue about style and sound (like for example my label with Rupture Dutty Artz) by picking cool emerging artists and giving them a platform and helping to filter their output, not by guys in pin-striped suits sniffing coke in some big office trying to make money. Using ‘the record industry’ as a blanket term for some kind of exploitative boogie man is stupid.

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How To Start Your Own Blog

I have been on a blogging buzz lately and am really enjoying it, but up until now I had never actually hosted my own site. Previously I was using a friend’s hosting account and had never actually set one of these up. When I set out to launch mattshadetek.com I learned how easy it actually is. I am not a super programmer web-developer guy and I was able to get this site up in about half an hour. The platform I’m using is WordPress, which is a super popular and awesome, easy to use blogging platform. In a nutshell, these are the steps:

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Zen Calligraphy and The Art of Music Production

This article is a cross-post from my article series at the dubspot blog.

Zen Flesh Zen Bones & Keyboard

Zen Flesh, Zen Bones on my MIDI Controller, photo by the author.

The goal of learning anything well is to be able to do it easily and without constant thought and struggle.

In sports they call this ‘muscle memory’. You train until the correct action becomes a reflex. The goal of music training is the same. By learning and internalizing the rules we can make the right gesture the first time. My personal study of Zen has given me a great appreciation for the beauty in a single gesture. It’s something I strive for in my own production.

I often teach my students that when they find themselves struggling and unhappy with a project to save, stop and work on something else. Often what is causing you to struggle is a serious problem that you are too close to see. While a painter is painting they repeatedly step back and view the painting from across the room. We need to emulate this practice as composers and often time is the distance that’s required. I was talking with J. Period, a hiphop DJ I met recently and he mentioned a quote from Quincy Jones: “music is one of the few disciplines that simultaneously use the right and left sides of our brain.” This is very true and I find that a major part of the balancing act of musical creativity is not allowing either side to completely dominate. One of the goals and uses of skill building is to turn left brain activities into things which the right brain can control almost unconsciously. I was just reading one of my favorite books called “Zen Flesh Zen Bones” which is a collection of Zen Buddhist parables and koans and came across this anecdote:

When one goes to the Obaku temple in Kyoto he sees carved over the gate the words “The First Principle.” The letters are unusually large , and those who appreciate calligraphy always admire them as being a masterpiece. They were drawn by Kosen two hundred years ago.
When the master drew them he did so on paper, from which workmen made the larger carving wood. As Kosen sketched the letters a bold pupil was with him who had made several gallons of ink for the calligraphy and who never failed to ciriticize his master’s work.
“That is not good,” he told Kosen after the first effort.
“How is that one?”
“Poor. Worse than before,” pronounced the pupil.

Kosen patiently wrote one sheet after another until eighty-four First Princiiples had accumulated , still without the approval of the pupil.
Then, when the young pupil stepped outside for a few moments, Kosen thought: “Now is my chance to escape his keen eye,” and he wrote hurriedly, with a mind free of distraction: “The First Principle.”
“A masterpiece,” pronounced the pupil.

- From Zen Flesh Zen Bones, Nyogen Senzaki, english translation by Paul Reps

As creative people we can learn a great deal from this. Going back to my piece The Critic Inside you can take the student in this example as the inner censor and experiment with the speed dating approach I discussed in my speed dating article to activate your ingrained creative reflexes. Try using the site e.ggtimer.com or any other timer device and challenge yourself to build several sketches of tracks as quickly as you can. I recommend starting with a 20 minute per sketch timer.

If you’d like to get a copy of Zen Flesh, Zen Bones you can get it from my Amazon store. I get a little commission when you buy something and it helps to support this site.

I’m Doing It For The Scene Maaan

I’ve been making music in various underground music scenes for the past ten years now. I’ve enjoyed it a lot. Generally you find great people in underground music scenes, people with a lot of passion and dedication who truly love music. When people are able to strike a balance between their underground aesthetic and being organized, special stuff can happen. But there are many times when people can’t strike that balance. One of the ideas that I’ve run into again and again in this world is the idea of ‘doing it for the scene’. On one level this is a very respectable idea: doing something not out of self interest, but to benefit the larger musical community. The problem I’ve encountered with this is that taken too far this can seriously undermine one’s ability to continue to function.

For example, let’s say hypothetically you are a small record distributor. You do it because you believe in the music, you want to support emerging artists and labels and you don’t care about money. You set up shop, take product on consignment from any unknown player with a willingness to press their material and start doing business. Consignment is when you take product before paying for it, warehouse it and pay when it sells. You continue to operate on this basis but because you have so many unheard of records released by labels with no business model or capability to promote them, sales are slow. Eventually, basic costs start to add up. The rent on your office is due every month. The bill for your shipping provider is rising. Eventually there comes a time when you have backed yourself into a corner. Nothing is selling and while you were hoping for an improvement you passed the point of no return. The shipping company has cut off your access to shipping because your owed bill is so high. Your landlord is initiating eviction proceedings against your office where you warehouse your product.

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The Critic Inside

Matt Shadetek at Dubspot

Here is an excerpt from a piece I wrote on creativity for the Dubspot Blog. Link to full piece below.

Having written the first of these articles on the subject of Production Speed Dating, and gotten some great feedback on it from some of my friends and my colleagues at Dubspot, I feel encouraged to talk more about creative methodologies. Hank Shocklee (the incredibly influential producer of Public Enemy) posted a link to an article via Twitter about ‘How to Create Creativity’ which I recommend (see link below). In it, there was a quote which got me going.

“Sir Ken Robinson, a 20th century thinker in the development of innovation and human resources, claims that by the time kids became adults, most have lost their capacity to be creative; they have become frightened to be wrong – they get educated out of creativity.” – Martina Skendar, How To Create Creativity

The concept of becoming frightened to be wrong is something that I think holds back many people upon entering creative disciplines, as well as those of us who have been doing this for a while. One of the concepts of the Speed Dating methodology is to temporarily silence the inner critic, and simply create by separating the creating and editing stages into different work sessions. In beat-making the time and thought-consuming work of arranging and mixing is similar to the process of revision or editing in writing. This is an important part of the process and one I would argue is critical in defining one’s artistic identity. However, this process of editing, revising and discarding ideas can conflict with the free and uncensored expression of ideas that are necessary to be creative.

Finish reading this article over at the Dubspot Blog where it originally appeared.